Saturday, April 28th, 2018
I attended a conference being held at my church. It was perfect timing since I was trying to remain busy and distracted over the weekend.
During worship, the Lord showed me what the enemy meant for evil in this situation, He would turn for my good and it would be beautiful...
Monday, April 30th, 2018
Walking into the lobby of the cancer center you could just feel it. The heaviness. The desperation. The despair. Nobody wanted to be there. There was just sort of a sadness. Fleeting glances and half smiles of sympathy mixed with fear.
We waited and pretended to watch what was playing on the little TV. I saw someone I knew from a small group I was a part of. It was such a blessing to see a familiar face there. We were finally called back and taken to the lab area. They took blood and then showed us to our exam room.
Dr. Jones (the one from the phone call) walked in. He still carried the same sense of urgency as our phone conversation.
He let us know the findings of the CAT scan:
- Mass on my liver
- Masses on my spleen
- Lots of swollen lymph nodes under my chest area
- Two very large lymph nodes on either side of my artery were pressing on it. (this was the answer to the previously mentioned freak out from the Dr.)
- Preliminary diagnoses of Lymphoma
- High risk for a blood clot
Lymphoma??
Wait what??? What is that??
I asked him, ” What do we do for that?”
“Chemo” he said matter of factly.
I have a confession. Honestly, I had no idea what lymphoma was but it sounded serious. I didn’t understand it was cancer.
“Oh no, I don’t want to do that”.
He then told us that we were going to schedule surgery for a lymph node biopsy and then go from there. We set it for May 14th which was two weeks out.
We walked out of the office in complete shock…
